I came from an extremely abusive household. My father was the dominant and controlling abuser! As a result, healthy LOVE was never received so I began searching and trying to fill this void through unhealthy, sexual encounters with men.
Men did not respect me because I did not respect myself. I became a rebellious teenager and as a result of my rebellious behavior, I lost my virginity at the age of 14 which led to the beginning of many years of “hell on earth.” I began to self-destruct from committing the sins of fornication, promiscuity, lust, smoking, experimenting with alcohol and marijuana.
I began to self-destruct from committing the sins of fornication, promiscuity, lust, smoking, experimenting with alcohol and marijuana.
I also contracted Chlamydia, aborted eight babies and miscarried twins. After I aborted the second child, my heart grew cold and my body became physically numb to the pain. My hungry search for healthy LOVE was my agenda day in and day out. I felt the only way for me to receive the love I was desperately looking for would be to have sex. In my twisted thinking, each sexual encounter gave me hope that “this man would be different.” When this did not occur and I became pregnant, I aborted the baby. By the time I aborted the third child, it was like another day gone by.
My hungry search for healthy LOVE was my agenda
I developed a “wax cold demeanor“ because if I had taken the time to think about the killing of my children, my human side would have taken over and that would have forced me to stop having sex which at the time, sex was my “drug of choice.” As long as I did not think about my negative actions, I could continue along the path of self-destruction and keep taking my “drug of choice” because I needed that “daily fix.” I am so grateful the Lord kept me alive during every abortion and I never experienced any severe complications.
I am so grateful the Lord kept me
In addition, God has cleansed and healed my body inside and out from every sexual encounter and every instrument used to abort my children. Finally, I am so thankful the Lord has healed me mentally and emotionally!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM!!! I give all praise, honor and glory to the Father because I have been delivered from the sins of fornication, promiscuity, lust, smoking, drinking and using marijuana. I have also been delivered from the guilt of having the abortions and the shame from contracting the sexually transmitted disease which the Lord has completely healed my body.
Lord has healed me mentally and emotionally
They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony. Revelation 12:11 Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more. Isaiah 43:18, 25. For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more. Hebrews 8:12 I have written a book entitled “Chosen to Bear the Cross” which describes my testimony in full.
They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony. Revelation 12:11